我很平安，因为我知道耶稣在我心里(mama,2009)

This was what she said to 牧师 when he visited her on wednesday afternoon. This was also when she proclaimed to him that she was ready to leave if God calls. It has been 6 days since she left us, and the feeling is still niggling in my heart. I really miss her.I really do. I am not able to make fun of her so that she would hit me, I cannot pester her anymore to make me my favourite food, I cannot hear her repeated questions because she wants to know more about you that she has missed participating in.

我有很多东西告诉你，希望你听得懂我的心。谢谢你等我从美国回来，谢谢你陪伴我走过21年。你给我的超过你所想象。你教会了我怎样去爱一个人，你教了我“家庭”的重要性。谢谢你每次都给我们笑声，因为有你，我知道我的笑话有多烂，你都会很捧场的笑，每次都笑着讲“li zhei lei xiao char bo,wu li di eh chu eh cha si lang”. 谢谢你最后背痛的时候，还很努力的从床边爬了上来，想跟我们吃一顿。谢谢每次我去你家的时候，你会很高兴，一直跟我嚷嚷个不停。虽然你一直叫我们打电话给你，但是，我很少很少做到。谢谢你一直要帮我泡milo, 在三更半夜走出来关心我。谢谢你在我生命里画下的一笔一划，是你鼓励我成为一位老师，因为只有在那里可以看到小孩子的天真。我说不尽你对我的影响，但是，你的教训和你的爱，我一定会把它传给我身边的人。

I dont know what words can describe the feeling that I have, and I am quite sure the same feeling extends to the rest of the family. I would guess that we are all missing her, thinking about her in our daily lives, but we know that she is off to somewhere much better than where she was in. Time will heal our heartaches ba (I know it sounds cliche) but at the meantime, I will let her love that she has left behind to overwhelm me.

I remember the night before she left, I dreamt that she left holding hands with gong gong, smiling very peacefully. Not turning back although all of us were staring at them, because i think she knows that we’ll be able to live properly while she is away. I cant help but be proud of her, I think she is one of the coolest ah ma that you can ever get. Not that she dance to rock and roll, but the things she did when she was a teen, to what she experienced when she got married, until now we can all witness how she impacted the lives of everyone around her. It will definately leave a legacy which will be remembered very dearly….*heartache*